To not feel a thing
To numb myself
To not hurt again
Those were my aims.
A dead heart inside
No turmoil in my mind
The peace for which I’d strived
In a vacuum it lies.
No hurt, no pain
No feeling uncertain
No hope to be crushed
No turbulence in my heart.
No confusions,
No misunderstandings
No unwanted feelings
No tears left to be shed
No heartbreak to be had.
No more uncomfortable silences
No more anxiously waiting for a text
Or for a conversation to be had
I think I can finally breathe again.